Top Surgery Trials and Tribulations
I want top surgery. I’ve never been shy about that, hidden from that fact, or tried to make it not so.
Quite the contrary. I spoke about it. Maybe I was too in your face about it? Maybe I turned some people off?
I cannot currently work because my mental and physical health, and now, weighing heavy on me, I may not be able to get top surgery.
I have a mitral valve prolapse, which sounds pretty harmless and my doctor says it’s fairly common. I’ll put a link at the end of this so you guys can get all of the details about it.
I talked to my surgeon I have picked and he was honest with me. Because of the prolapse I am more at risk of dying during surgery, even this one. Uhhhhh…Oh….well…
Hearing that has made me slightly depressed. I know my prolapse is annoying, somewhat painful, and just plain bothersome, but I didn’t really think I could DIE. Knowing this has put me in a funk.
Do I take the possible risk and get surgery? Do I say fuck it and bind for the rest of my life? I really want the surgery. It has always been my dream to have a flat chest. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just being stubborn. But now I’m so scared it isn’t even funny.
On a side note, need to figure out when I’m visiting my family. But I’ll do a post about that later.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/mitral-valve-prolapse/DS00504
Right now the question is, do I get the surgery or decide to say fuck it?
